another brainfart hits the windshield

you know what is wrong with you, but you just cannot put a finger on what exactly it is. sometimes i reach a creative halt. nothing happens. no ideas come into my brain and i just sit here, wondering why i am so slow. at times, i have a serious lack of drive. i try to force my way out of that slump, but forcing the brain to think can sometimes result in sloppy work, to then the question that i raise is 'is sloppy work better than no work?' i think it is. sloppy, forced, and rushed work is still some form of effort. sometimes you need to get it wrong, get it more wrong, and then be even more incorrect, just so that you can find something that is so right you have no idea how you came up with something so brilliant. my writing is a little rusty, but it will get better in time. it is the same thing with everything that a person wishes to get better at. the more time you spend perfecting your craft, your artwork, you life, the better you will be at everything. you get better by trial and error. you flourish by seeing where your zone is. you then have more understanding on where you can take creative gambles in order to widen your own abilities. i envy the kids who know what they want to do and spend all their time doing it, getting better and better at it everyday. i wish i did not have so many damn ideas and thoughts in my head. i wish i were more focused....but i cannot and will not change who i am because i was made this way for a reason. the people around me are great, whether they stay or whether we part. they have all helped me in their own way and i appreciate the time i spend with everyone. now, i believe is the time that we all find our success, or at least the path to it. these years will be the defining times in our legacies. i raise my glass and toast to all those who i know and those who i do not. we are winners.

cheers to you.